I have been back at Trinity for almost a week now, and already I am being called into places of deeper trust. Mostly this trust is being required of me in areas of finance and provision. I made it a goal this summer to take steps toward financial peace and, in general, better money management. I knew it would require trust in God’s faithfulness in order to practice giving as the first priority with my money. But then it hit me. Hard. How do I practice trust and giving when I have next to nothing? When, in fact, I am actually starting with a negative balance.
Here is the reality of my situation:
I have about $20 left on my credit card for groceries. I owe some people quite a bit of money. I don’t get paid for another two weeks. On top of that, I need to replace two tires on my car.
This, also, is reality:
I have a Father who knows what I need. A Father who sustains life. A Father who gives good gifts. And I can count on my Father’s faithfulness.
This I also know:
He has given me the gift of faith, so I firmly believe that He will provide for me. Even more than that, I have faith that He will provide abundantly. Because He fed 5,000 and there were leftovers. Because the widow’s flour and oil was renewed every day. Because He loves to give me good things. Because He is unlimited. And because He is the God who looked at nothing, spoke to it, and created everything.
So yeah, I still trust Him. And because He gives generously, I will also give generously.
“He split rocks in the wilderness and gave them drink abundantly as from the deep.” – Psalm 78:15
